I definitely don’t believe myself to be in love with this guy… honestly ; i could analyzew myself and tell you that i have a fathering issue… Every man i talk to on more than a friend level, I find myself needing him to stabilize me. I never had my dad in my life since he was killed so early in my life… to make a long story short, I could admire almost any man for what they’re not.. This is leading to my point, right.
My first lil white boy. He’s adorable; He really is. He’s somebody i think I wanna spend a lot more time with.. someone I could see myself being close with…As all this normally does take time, I just really don’t know what to expect at this time. When we’re together, we’re close… in more ways than one lol but when we’re in our separate cities after those few days together, I don’t feel like we hold the same bond. .. I don’t know if I’m over reacting since I do have the tendency to do that on occasion.. I don’t wanna scare him away. I shld stop trippin && see where this goes. . I may end up not liking him just as much as he doesn’t like me.
… maybe I should just let him go slowly…
Idfk